Hello my fellow blogger friends,

Hope that life is treating you well, Know that I love you and that I miss you and think of you all often.. I hope that things are well wherever you are at this point or at whatever stage in life you are at.

There has been alot going on in my life that has sent me into a spiral downward motion and not in an upward direction, I know alot of it has been doubt and fear, but I am just going to keep trying to do the best that i can..

i hope all is well know that I love you all
Until next time
Crystal

A Baby A Baby... But Not my Baby...

Well, I haven't seen my one friend From Clinton in a couple years, Anyways I have known the last few months or so that she is going to have a baby. She is a lovely friend who I have been friends with Since my last year of highschool. And that would be actually grade 13 not grade 12. So anyways today I stopped by with some baby stuff that I had bought to bring to her.

Because I was working in Clinton for my last sunday before Racing is over till next summer. I have felt like I really have slacked over the last while in being her friend and I don't know why. I am not judgemental and I love people no matter what.
I think its because my mind has been focused else where.

Anyways I stopped by to see her today, And Unfortunately She wasn't home, She was gone to work but My friend's mom took the stuff and Said that once the baby is born that I had better stop in and see my friend and the baby.

But that means making another trip to Clinton, I really have no purpose in going to clinton nor do I like Clinton that much. I just go in the summer for the work and because I have some friends that I work with that I enjoy seeing every summer.

The baby is due in October, Which is a good month cause that is the month in which I was born, I know that the baby will be blessed with such a wonderful mother, As she is a wonderful friend. And I know that even though we don't talk sometimes as much as I would like and we don't even see each other that much that I know that she is always there for me when I need her.

I wish her all the best in her remaining 5 weeks... And all the best once the baby is born. I know that she will nurture this child well and that this baby will be blessed to have her as a mother.

Until next time...
Crystal

I am sorry I can't be perfect! That describes me Best

Well its been a while since I have updated this blog, A lot has gone on in my world and in my crazy mixed up head. I don't know why my minds leads me into these series of doubts, and fear and other things.
The last few days, I have felt a very unhappy feeling, Like very down, I almost didn't go to sacrament this morning that is how bad it is.
There is this song called perfect by simple plan that describes exactly how I feel at times. And right now at this point when I seem to be struggling. I don't know why I feel like this or what has brought this on.

I was feeling fine I guess until friday evening when I went to a YSA dance, There has been many mixed feelings the last little while about YSA I seem to be growing older and less fond of YSA I don't know why on the most part the people in YSA have been pleasant and there is always someone I feel like I need to help.

But I feel like I am missing something there, I don't know what it is or haven't been able to pin point what it exactly is, There are times that I feel great content happy and then something triggers these fears doubts and like I am not good enough for anyone and in particular my friend.

I know that satan is working hard on me right now, and that I made the correct decision this morning when the sisters called to wake me up for sacrament but I just didn't feel wonderful at sacrament. I don't know what is wrong with me. I know that there is alot of hard things going on in life right now.

And I know that the lord puts trials in our lives to make us stronger, and that he won't give us anymore then we can handle. But I haven't felt this low in a long time. And it's going to take a little work but I know I will come out of it.

Right now, What I need is prayers! I know that the gospel blesses lives I have seen it. it is marvelous. Please pray that this will go away and that I will feel better. I love you all so very very much.

Thanks for being my friend and being there when I have needed it i know sometimes I don't show enough appreciation
But I Appreciate all of you my friends
thanks for being my friend even when I get like this

Crystal

Moving,, Craziness and more

Hey All,
You may have thought that i fell off the face of the planet as I haven't been on this stupid thing in like ever but I have been busy moving and going crazy. That is right going crazy. There has been many changes in my life. like Moving I currently for those of you who know and or care have moved from living behind the Labatt's Brewery to Oxford right across from the army base.
I hope all is well with everyone. I love you all!

THE RETURN...

Hello all it's been a few days since I have last updated this blog and I know that I should be updating you on the YSA conference that took place in Guelph last weekend but I have felt compelled to write on something different the return of a dear friend. My dearest friend Hannah arrived this evening from her mission. I am so happy and pleased to have been able to go to the airport to greet her and also have had the sweet opportunity to spend much of the evening with her. I am truly grateful for her friendship and for the love and support she gives me.
I know that the gospel is true that he lives.
Love you all
Crystal

Weekend in guelph and 2 days!!!!!

Hello All I have been away since Friday and haven't been responsive to anything anyways, There was a YSA conference this weekend in Guelph actually we had the exact conference at the University of Guelph. The conference was amazing minus the rock hard beds. That is right I would have rather slept outside in a tent then slept on the beds. We had an amazing weekend. The Spirit was so strong at that Conference yet there was a lot of fun plus there was the right amount of spirituality at the conference. We hardly got any sleep staying up late for dances and late night capture the flags, and early mornings hasn't done any of us any good! But hey you got to have fun though too right. We had some amazing speakers.
We had Sister Wendy Ulrich and Brother Clayton Christensen who has spoken to us YSA in london before before a stake conference a couple years back and really enjoys being able to speak to YSA ! he really made us laugh. This conference has re energized me and made me look at life different. I wanted to post a couple pictures from our weekend in Guelph and when more comes up I will post more.

I have the blessing of in 2 days seeing one of my really good friends come home from her mission. I get to greet her at the airport with her Family. I am really excited!

anyways here is the pictures. I will write more on conference maybe later today but as for now I am off to bed.
Good Night...

Why Do People Frustrate Me So Much! 10 days to go almost single digits......

I have found over the last week or so that I have become more and more irratated with people. Some for reasons that I know has nothing to do with me but it just seems more and more irratating I have been praying to the lord to ask for strength to help me deal with these people. I am currently excited that my really close friend Hermana Lockwood comes home from her mission on the 6th of August I can't believe how this time has flown by. It just seemed like yesterday I was saying goodbye to her and now she is returning. Oh how I love her! I even get to be at the airport to welcome her home. That will be the exciting part. to be there to embrace her and give her a hug and tell her i love her that is the best part.
She has been a big part of my life, and when she first got sent home on medical leave she was sad but I kept reassuring her that the lord knew what was best for her and that he would send her back if that is what he needed her to do. In january she returned to Utah to finish out the remainder of her mission.
It really helped me know that the gospel is true it reassured me, The fact that I was able to be that comfort to a friend when she needed it really helped solidify alot in my mind. Hermana Lockwood has been there for me when I have needed her. And in return I do the same for her. I am blessed to have her in my life! She has been that strength and support that I have needed.
I hope all is well and that you are not feeling as frustrated about people as I am, I just sometimes don't get people. but anyways That is all for now
Stay tuned...
for the next installment of Crystal's life
P.S tune in next week as I will probably have YSA conference Update how it went and the hermana Lockwood return blog.