Hello my fellow blogger friends,
Hope that life is treating you well, Know that I love you and that I miss you and think of you all often.. I hope that things are well wherever you are at this point or at whatever stage in life you are at.
There has been alot going on in my life that has sent me into a spiral downward motion and not in an upward direction, I know alot of it has been doubt and fear, but I am just going to keep trying to do the best that i can..
i hope all is well know that I love you all
Until next time
Crystal
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
A Baby A Baby... But Not my Baby...
Well, I haven't seen my one friend From Clinton in a couple years, Anyways I have known the last few months or so that she is going to have a baby. She is a lovely friend who I have been friends with Since my last year of highschool. And that would be actually grade 13 not grade 12. So anyways today I stopped by with some baby stuff that I had bought to bring to her.
Because I was working in Clinton for my last sunday before Racing is over till next summer. I have felt like I really have slacked over the last while in being her friend and I don't know why. I am not judgemental and I love people no matter what.
I think its because my mind has been focused else where.
Anyways I stopped by to see her today, And Unfortunately She wasn't home, She was gone to work but My friend's mom took the stuff and Said that once the baby is born that I had better stop in and see my friend and the baby.
But that means making another trip to Clinton, I really have no purpose in going to clinton nor do I like Clinton that much. I just go in the summer for the work and because I have some friends that I work with that I enjoy seeing every summer.
The baby is due in October, Which is a good month cause that is the month in which I was born, I know that the baby will be blessed with such a wonderful mother, As she is a wonderful friend. And I know that even though we don't talk sometimes as much as I would like and we don't even see each other that much that I know that she is always there for me when I need her.
I wish her all the best in her remaining 5 weeks... And all the best once the baby is born. I know that she will nurture this child well and that this baby will be blessed to have her as a mother.
Until next time...
Crystal
Because I was working in Clinton for my last sunday before Racing is over till next summer. I have felt like I really have slacked over the last while in being her friend and I don't know why. I am not judgemental and I love people no matter what.
I think its because my mind has been focused else where.
Anyways I stopped by to see her today, And Unfortunately She wasn't home, She was gone to work but My friend's mom took the stuff and Said that once the baby is born that I had better stop in and see my friend and the baby.
But that means making another trip to Clinton, I really have no purpose in going to clinton nor do I like Clinton that much. I just go in the summer for the work and because I have some friends that I work with that I enjoy seeing every summer.
The baby is due in October, Which is a good month cause that is the month in which I was born, I know that the baby will be blessed with such a wonderful mother, As she is a wonderful friend. And I know that even though we don't talk sometimes as much as I would like and we don't even see each other that much that I know that she is always there for me when I need her.
I wish her all the best in her remaining 5 weeks... And all the best once the baby is born. I know that she will nurture this child well and that this baby will be blessed to have her as a mother.
Until next time...
Crystal
I am sorry I can't be perfect! That describes me Best
Well its been a while since I have updated this blog, A lot has gone on in my world and in my crazy mixed up head. I don't know why my minds leads me into these series of doubts, and fear and other things.
The last few days, I have felt a very unhappy feeling, Like very down, I almost didn't go to sacrament this morning that is how bad it is.
There is this song called perfect by simple plan that describes exactly how I feel at times. And right now at this point when I seem to be struggling. I don't know why I feel like this or what has brought this on.
I was feeling fine I guess until friday evening when I went to a YSA dance, There has been many mixed feelings the last little while about YSA I seem to be growing older and less fond of YSA I don't know why on the most part the people in YSA have been pleasant and there is always someone I feel like I need to help.
But I feel like I am missing something there, I don't know what it is or haven't been able to pin point what it exactly is, There are times that I feel great content happy and then something triggers these fears doubts and like I am not good enough for anyone and in particular my friend.
I know that satan is working hard on me right now, and that I made the correct decision this morning when the sisters called to wake me up for sacrament but I just didn't feel wonderful at sacrament. I don't know what is wrong with me. I know that there is alot of hard things going on in life right now.
And I know that the lord puts trials in our lives to make us stronger, and that he won't give us anymore then we can handle. But I haven't felt this low in a long time. And it's going to take a little work but I know I will come out of it.
Right now, What I need is prayers! I know that the gospel blesses lives I have seen it. it is marvelous. Please pray that this will go away and that I will feel better. I love you all so very very much.
Thanks for being my friend and being there when I have needed it i know sometimes I don't show enough appreciation
But I Appreciate all of you my friends
thanks for being my friend even when I get like this
Crystal
The last few days, I have felt a very unhappy feeling, Like very down, I almost didn't go to sacrament this morning that is how bad it is.
There is this song called perfect by simple plan that describes exactly how I feel at times. And right now at this point when I seem to be struggling. I don't know why I feel like this or what has brought this on.
I was feeling fine I guess until friday evening when I went to a YSA dance, There has been many mixed feelings the last little while about YSA I seem to be growing older and less fond of YSA I don't know why on the most part the people in YSA have been pleasant and there is always someone I feel like I need to help.
But I feel like I am missing something there, I don't know what it is or haven't been able to pin point what it exactly is, There are times that I feel great content happy and then something triggers these fears doubts and like I am not good enough for anyone and in particular my friend.
I know that satan is working hard on me right now, and that I made the correct decision this morning when the sisters called to wake me up for sacrament but I just didn't feel wonderful at sacrament. I don't know what is wrong with me. I know that there is alot of hard things going on in life right now.
And I know that the lord puts trials in our lives to make us stronger, and that he won't give us anymore then we can handle. But I haven't felt this low in a long time. And it's going to take a little work but I know I will come out of it.
Right now, What I need is prayers! I know that the gospel blesses lives I have seen it. it is marvelous. Please pray that this will go away and that I will feel better. I love you all so very very much.
Thanks for being my friend and being there when I have needed it i know sometimes I don't show enough appreciation
But I Appreciate all of you my friends
thanks for being my friend even when I get like this
Crystal
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Moving,, Craziness and more
Hey All,
You may have thought that i fell off the face of the planet as I haven't been on this stupid thing in like ever but I have been busy moving and going crazy. That is right going crazy. There has been many changes in my life. like Moving I currently for those of you who know and or care have moved from living behind the Labatt's Brewery to Oxford right across from the army base.
I hope all is well with everyone. I love you all!
You may have thought that i fell off the face of the planet as I haven't been on this stupid thing in like ever but I have been busy moving and going crazy. That is right going crazy. There has been many changes in my life. like Moving I currently for those of you who know and or care have moved from living behind the Labatt's Brewery to Oxford right across from the army base.
I hope all is well with everyone. I love you all!
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