Happy Happy Happy....

hello my fellow followers

This feeling I have is amazing I have been over abundantly happy about everything as of late. Maybe its because I am starting to love myself. And have finally started to forgive myself for the things that have happened when I fell off the wagon. I am removing walls and beginning to trust people around me. Even though it can be hard and a difficult challenge sometimes but I am working on it. Its funny to see how great I feel and how much the others around me have seen the same results. they say they haven't seen me this happy in a very long time. which makes me smile to see that they see the change in me is a great feeling. I am working so hard on being the best that I can be and to do the best that I can do. My feet are planted on firm foundation and whether my family is active or not that is not going to stop me from being happy. I just wish they could see and feel the same happiness that I feel. God has blessed my life so much!! and I am thankful for that!! I am thankful for all of you I am thankful for the blessings in my life. and for the wonderful guy in which I am really getting to know. I hope all is well with you.
LOVE YOU ALL.... CRYSTAL

A Boy...

for those who of you do not know. I am dating! Yes Crystal has a boyfriend his name is Andreas Alexander Knecht. He and I have just been dating a little over a week but I just love being able to talk to him he makes me so happy and I laugh I always receive messages from him every morning when I come home from work. its been exceptionally hard because for the current time we have to date from afar till he comes back to canada next month. so we are really right now boyfriend and girlfriend from afar and we are getting to really know each other. For those of you that do not know about andreas he was baptized last august into the church. he went to the YSA conference last year in toronto and noticed me at the conference. He said to me the night he asked me out that he did not know why I was alone the weekend of the conference that I was really pretty and that he noticed me and was looking for me at the dances. Unfortunately Me I was not in tune with things I guess and i did not stay i think for the friday dance and the saturday dance I sat so far back with some friends that the guys could not see me if they wanted to you know that is the way to avoid them. wow how my life has changed so much. I have a stronger testimony of the gospel of jesus christ I love the gospel I am grateful for it in my life. it is really funny how the lord works. I have always been the girl that ran from guys and I didn't even want to get to know a guy that might then mean that I will fall in love with them. I have been struggling with Loving myself and my one friend breanne has really been working hard on helping me see the good others see in me. And then there was this boy that came into my life. each road block has been becoming increasingly easier and easier to break down. I am excited to see what happens. I love you all you have all blessed my life in some way you all mean the world to me I hope all is well and I will write you all again soon.
Love Crystal

what am i going to say today today is going to just blabber on for a few minutes here.
there was a song that I was listening to the other day on the radio one of the first days that I have had the radio on in a very long time. there was one part of the song that stuck on in my brain.

"Till now, I always got by on my own. I never really cared until I met you."

i think of that always right now! its true for the longest time I always got by on my own just doing my own thing just doing what i need to get by. . but its true there where and are alot of things that I did not care about till I met you.. each and everyone of you. each and everyone of you helped me begin to care about things in my life and I am truly blessed and grateful for that!

I hope all of you are well! I miss you all and love you all...

The Perfect Day

Hey Today was one of the best days that I have had in a long time it was a wonderful sabbath day.
My day started off with a wonderful phone call to my friend in Utah Haley Peterson and we read the New Testament mark Chapter 9 How blessed I am to have her in my life. Next I went and picked up 4 people and took them all to church. While I was a sacrament I had two wonderful friends sitting on either side of me. With me in the middle. Breanne was on one side of me and then camille was on the other side of me it was great.
in sacrament today we had to sing acapella as we had no pianist or organ player. church was great I had both of my friends sitting beside me during sacrament and sunday school. then relief society Breanne came and sat right beside me. whenever i find myself sitting beside or close to breanne I find myself laughing. She has been a blessing in my life. After church for the last little while a bunch of us have been going over and hanging out at breanne's cassandra's and michelle's last week i got home at like 12:30 and today i arrived home at 12:05am yes monday morning shortly after I arrived home. I love spending time there I feel the spirit so strongly in their home. we usually have sunday evening dinners together and we also usually have so games that we play and some movies that we watch. I am grateful to feel blessed by the lord, my week last week was good a challenge at times but good. I am really removing some of the walls that have been placed up in my life for a very long time. I am so grateful to all of my friends for all that they do for me.
that was my sabbath day