A New Month

So its june and its already incredibly hot and I incredibly hate it so much right now. I do not mind the hot but I do not like 38 with the humidex kind of warmth. where everything sticks to you. its gross and nasty. I have had to come home and shower and change and not ready to go out anytime soon. although it will be nice when it cools down later tonight.
I hope everything is well with you. I am so grateful for the gospel in my life the blessing that it is and that I am not like the people in the world like Judy who is so confused! She believes in Satan but not in God or in Jesus Christ.
Andreas is back. he went out to Saskatchewan and came back. He missed me and was mis lead by somethings that where said. So I am grateful that he is back! I missed him so much the week that he was gone. He is my world he is my everything. he treats me like A queen. I love him and am grateful for him in my life. the lord blessed me when he put andreas in my life.

GUESS WHAT.........

Hello Fellow bloggers!
Yesterday While I was at work, And while I was at work Andreas went to a store and bought me a gift. then he says to me in a text message! Hey I bought you a gift I was like ok expecting that it was another bouquet of flowers cause I have only received 3 since we have been dating, And since he has also bought me a necklace! Well he says do you know what it is I said no! He says its gold I am like Ok thinking that it is a necklace or some earrings or something, the next thing he sends is its round! I am like a ring! HE SAYS YES A RING! HE BOUGHT ME A PROMISE RING! its cute, super adorable and I love it, I was not expecting it at all! I think he bought it so that while he is away the other guys will see that He and I are serious and that they will not try to take me from him. Not that I would anyways. I hope all is well with you! i LOVE YOU ALL I miss you all.

HELLO FELLOW FOLLOWERS

its been a while since i have written on here and I have had some pretty up and down moments. Lately I have been really sick with bronchitis. as much as it isn't fun being sick with that kind of stuff i have been making the most of it. also my boyfriend is leaving me for 6-7 months to go work on a harvest crew. he accepted the job without even talking to me so it was really hard for me then he wondered why i got upset. Ir wasn't the fact that he wanted to do it it was the fact that my feelings basically didn't matter. that upset me.I turned it around and put him in the same situation. I said how would you like it if i did the exact same thing without telling you about it. he said i would be mad and upset and i said now you know why i am upset. I said its not the fact you want to do something its the fact you didn't even talk to me to see how i felt about this. it was very very much a eye opener for him.
we are working on communication, for him and i to talk to each other about things when it comes to needing to talk to someone, its been hard as my trust issues sometimes still want to come up. but I am just taking everything one day at a time. its been a rocky few days but we are working together to make things work and to be better.

TODAY...

Today has been one of those tipsy turby days full of emotion. and the boyfriend saw the first time tonight me cry. And he was super supportive, and it all came on just like a ton of bricks the way that they usually do. I have no rhythm or reason for it. We had been talking getting to know more about each other and then its just like all Of a sudden my emotions got the better of me.
He just is starting to realize the reason that I am the way that I am, and the reason that I have a hard time being able to accept compliments, and the reason i am so hard on myself and in his loving and supporting way he says to me I am here for you. We where at my friend Camille's wedding reception on the weekend it was so beautiful.
things are crazy busy here life is busy and crazy. but i love you all

HELLO ALL

Hello Friends,
As weird as this sounds I am excited that thursday is coming, not only because that means it is closer to the weekend but also because My boyfriend will be coming back from switzerland,how this month has been a struggle, him being in a different country and me being here has really put our relationship to the test and I can say that tomorrow when I pick him up at the airport it will be our 1 month and 2 week anniversary! it's been weird to say that I have been dating him that long. Cause this coming from the girl who didn't even want a boyfriend. Now i have these feelings for a man! A man who treats me like a queen!
I hope all is well with you all just letting you all know that I am still alive!
I love you all

MY RAY OF SUNSHINE....

Hello My fellow bloggers
Today I felt inspired to write a whole blog about my little ray of sunshine Breanne.
Wow I have a tremendous friend her Name is Breanne Cantlon. She is truly a tremendous friend. I love her! I was having a hard time and the one morning while doing papers by myself I decided that I would ponder about things. I had the inspiration that I needed to write Breanne a letter. At that point I did not know why or what would come out of doing so. Let me tell you that prompting has lead to a whole new outlook on life for me. I am super happy all the time. Not only did I need to evaluate my life and learn to love myself and forgive myself for things that I have done in my past that breanne worked so hard helping me with, but she has also helped me come out of my comfort zone. she has been right there to help me destruct walls that have been in place and alot of them for many years because of many fears! many fears about being teased or bugged about things. she is someone I know I can turn to if I need a helping hand. She and her roommates have a bunch of us over sunday evenings for dinner, and for once in my life I feel like I have someone who loves and accepts me for me and not what they want me to be. There have been many nights I have prayed to the lord thanking him for placing her in my life.
For those of you who do not know how I met Breanne, this is how it went down! I met her from being on facebook one day in december after being out with the sister missionaries. She had written that she needed a ride to the greyhound station. So even though I was super tired and felt like passing out I offered myself to give her a ride. And I am truly grateful she accepted because if she had not accepted I do not know if we would be as close as we are now! God knew that she would need me and I would need her. I am grateful for that december day. For her never being Judging of Me! for her loving me flaws and all. for her inspiring me to be a better person and to love myself so I can see what others love about me. She has blessed my life in many ways that I cannot express.
I LOVE YOU BREANNE! YOU ARE AN AMAZING PERSON AND AN EVEN MORE AMAZING FRIEND... I HAVE SO MUCH I AM GRATEFUL FOR BUT MOST OF ALL I AM GRATEFUL FOR YOU! FOR THE LOVE YOU SHOW ME THE SUPPORT YOU GIVE ME AND FOR SHOWING ME HOW TO BE A BETTER FRIEND...AND I AM MOST GRATEFUL I AM GRATEFUL FOR LISTENING TO THE LORD FOR OFFERING YOU THAT RIDE AND FOR THE WONDERFUL FRIEND HE HAS GIVEN ME.
your beautiful and most of all I love you. Never ever forget who you are. You are a beautiful daughter of God.

i hope all of my fellow bloggers had a great general conference weekend and until next time.

Happy Happy Happy....

hello my fellow followers

This feeling I have is amazing I have been over abundantly happy about everything as of late. Maybe its because I am starting to love myself. And have finally started to forgive myself for the things that have happened when I fell off the wagon. I am removing walls and beginning to trust people around me. Even though it can be hard and a difficult challenge sometimes but I am working on it. Its funny to see how great I feel and how much the others around me have seen the same results. they say they haven't seen me this happy in a very long time. which makes me smile to see that they see the change in me is a great feeling. I am working so hard on being the best that I can be and to do the best that I can do. My feet are planted on firm foundation and whether my family is active or not that is not going to stop me from being happy. I just wish they could see and feel the same happiness that I feel. God has blessed my life so much!! and I am thankful for that!! I am thankful for all of you I am thankful for the blessings in my life. and for the wonderful guy in which I am really getting to know. I hope all is well with you.
LOVE YOU ALL.... CRYSTAL

A Boy...

for those who of you do not know. I am dating! Yes Crystal has a boyfriend his name is Andreas Alexander Knecht. He and I have just been dating a little over a week but I just love being able to talk to him he makes me so happy and I laugh I always receive messages from him every morning when I come home from work. its been exceptionally hard because for the current time we have to date from afar till he comes back to canada next month. so we are really right now boyfriend and girlfriend from afar and we are getting to really know each other. For those of you that do not know about andreas he was baptized last august into the church. he went to the YSA conference last year in toronto and noticed me at the conference. He said to me the night he asked me out that he did not know why I was alone the weekend of the conference that I was really pretty and that he noticed me and was looking for me at the dances. Unfortunately Me I was not in tune with things I guess and i did not stay i think for the friday dance and the saturday dance I sat so far back with some friends that the guys could not see me if they wanted to you know that is the way to avoid them. wow how my life has changed so much. I have a stronger testimony of the gospel of jesus christ I love the gospel I am grateful for it in my life. it is really funny how the lord works. I have always been the girl that ran from guys and I didn't even want to get to know a guy that might then mean that I will fall in love with them. I have been struggling with Loving myself and my one friend breanne has really been working hard on helping me see the good others see in me. And then there was this boy that came into my life. each road block has been becoming increasingly easier and easier to break down. I am excited to see what happens. I love you all you have all blessed my life in some way you all mean the world to me I hope all is well and I will write you all again soon.
Love Crystal

what am i going to say today today is going to just blabber on for a few minutes here.
there was a song that I was listening to the other day on the radio one of the first days that I have had the radio on in a very long time. there was one part of the song that stuck on in my brain.

"Till now, I always got by on my own. I never really cared until I met you."

i think of that always right now! its true for the longest time I always got by on my own just doing my own thing just doing what i need to get by. . but its true there where and are alot of things that I did not care about till I met you.. each and everyone of you. each and everyone of you helped me begin to care about things in my life and I am truly blessed and grateful for that!

I hope all of you are well! I miss you all and love you all...

The Perfect Day

Hey Today was one of the best days that I have had in a long time it was a wonderful sabbath day.
My day started off with a wonderful phone call to my friend in Utah Haley Peterson and we read the New Testament mark Chapter 9 How blessed I am to have her in my life. Next I went and picked up 4 people and took them all to church. While I was a sacrament I had two wonderful friends sitting on either side of me. With me in the middle. Breanne was on one side of me and then camille was on the other side of me it was great.
in sacrament today we had to sing acapella as we had no pianist or organ player. church was great I had both of my friends sitting beside me during sacrament and sunday school. then relief society Breanne came and sat right beside me. whenever i find myself sitting beside or close to breanne I find myself laughing. She has been a blessing in my life. After church for the last little while a bunch of us have been going over and hanging out at breanne's cassandra's and michelle's last week i got home at like 12:30 and today i arrived home at 12:05am yes monday morning shortly after I arrived home. I love spending time there I feel the spirit so strongly in their home. we usually have sunday evening dinners together and we also usually have so games that we play and some movies that we watch. I am grateful to feel blessed by the lord, my week last week was good a challenge at times but good. I am really removing some of the walls that have been placed up in my life for a very long time. I am so grateful to all of my friends for all that they do for me.
that was my sabbath day

DESTRUCTO GIRL!

HELLO ALL
wow I cannot believe how long it has been since I have been on here and even wrote you an update on how I am doing. wow these past few months have been interesting all the way from the sisters investigator amber that i spent so much time going with them to see getting baptized to my new great friend breanne.
let me tell you about this great friend she is my ray of sunshine! she always makes me laugh, every time I hang out with her I am always laughing never not laughing. i have dinner with her and her room mates Cassandra and Michelle after church on sunday's. Let me tell you how i met and got to know this sweet sunshine.One day in december right around christmas time for what ever day they started christmas holiday's at the university. Breanne was looking for a ride to the greyhound station now the reason i tell you this is from that moment on Breanne has been my friend. I had a long day that day being out with the sisters most of the morning and not having slept well or very long I could have chose not to that is not the kind of person that i am though. I am glad that I did she has been a great inspiration to me the two of us are very much a like. I have been struggling with somethings and breanne wants to help me tear down these walls and for that I am truly grateful. Even when I get down on myself she is like be positive I love you!

we get down on ourselves and can be our hardest critics. I don't understand why god gave me such a loving friend. I don't understand! he blessed me and my life the moment breanne came into it! She is my ray of sunshine! she makes me laugh when i do not feel like laughing she makes my day seem always more bright. she always gives the best compliments and no matter how hard it can be for me to accept it and she is always willing to help me when i need it most.
I love you forever Breanne! I am grateful God put you in my life. Your the best and mean the world to me your my ray of sunshine. your a bright little cookie who has stuck by me. thank you for all you do for me.